最終的信仰獨白

克里斯蒂安的最後獨白：

「如果命運真的如此降臨，也許，就在今天吧，我若成為了正在剪滅這裡所有外國人的恐怖主義的受害者。
我希望，我的村民們，我的教會，我的家人們，能夠記住——
我的生命是獻給了神和這個國家；
這種殘忍的分離，對於唯一的永生之主來說，並非陌生；
我的死亡，與其他許多遭受迫害的死亡一樣，被埋葬在了無情的遺落之地；
我已活了足夠，足夠到我已經明白，唉，我也是這遍佈世界的罪惡的同謀之一；
這罪惡將足以擊我至盲。我不願意以這樣的方式死去。
我也十分不喜悅，那些我所愛的人和事，被隨意指責為謀殺我的兇手。

「我知道這裡的人，是被沒有理由地輕視的。
我知道伊斯蘭教也被某種「」伊斯蘭教主義「」所扭曲了。
這個國家，和伊斯蘭教，對我來說是不同的。
他們分別是肉體，和靈魂。

「那些稱我為天真或理想主義的人，很快就會把我的死作為他們的論據。
但，他們必須知道，因為死亡，我將免於受到強烈好奇心的折磨。
並且，如果他允許，我將會沉浸徜徉在與天父的對視中，
用和天父一樣的眼光看著、思忖著他的伊斯蘭孩子們。
我的感謝，致向所有出現在我生命中的人們，
當然也包括你們——過去和現在的朋友。

「還有你，最後時刻的朋友——儘管你曾做過什麼我毫無知曉。
是的，對你，我也致謝，並致以這你將親眼目睹的永別。

「如蒙天父悅納，也許我們將再次相會在天國。
阿們。但憑天意。」
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Christian's last monologue:

Should it ever befall me, and it could happen today, to be a victim of the terrorism swallowing up all foreigners here. I would like my community, my church, my family to remember,
That the unique matter of all life was no stranger to this brutal departure, and
that my death is the same as so many other violent ones, consigned to the apathy of oblivion.

I have lived enough to know I am of complicity in the evil that, alas, prevails over the world.
And the evil that will smite me blindly.I could never desire such a death.
I could never feel gladdened that these I love be accused randomly of my murder.

I know the contempt felt for the people here, indiscriminately.
And I know the Islam is distorted by a certain Islamism.
This country, and Islam, for me, are something different.
They are a body and a soul.

My death, of course, will quickly vindicate those who called me naive or idealistic.
But they must know that I will be freed of a burning curiosity, and
God willing, will immerse my gaze in the Father's, and
contemplate with him his children of Islam as he sees them.

This thank-you which encompasses my entire life includes you, of course,
friends of yesterday and today, and
you too, friend of the last minute, who knew not what you were doing.
Yes, to you as well I address this thank-you and this fare well which you envisaged.

May we meet again, happy thieves in Paradise, if it pleases God, the Father of us both.

Amen. Inchallah.