All you need is……what……

It's very weird not feeling that stupid panic thing inside me all the time。Without that，I start thinking about myself，and what good does that ever get anybody？Today on the bus there was this adorable couple，and I felt myself…giving them a dirty look。I just had no idea，everything was…moving in the wrong direction。Away from a time when I remembered what it was like to have a man……to anything……hold fucking……hand for caressive……I felt almost really bad that Dr.Bettes is married，Which is probably why I make Spence hug me more than he wants to，He has to make up for his Mom not getting any。