三個地方

Becca告訴她妹妹「在你去健身房的時候，讓媽媽看孩子」

妹妹說:我討厭你覺得我不值得有這個孩子，你覺得我因為不夠成熟，或不夠聰明而無法照顧他。

很多聰明的人，以為自己懂愛，以為自己辦事俐落穩重成熟，但未經歷付出愛的成熟，大概只是較快找到了遊戲規則，只是聰明。
但是生命的規則，僅是聰明是通不過的。
經歷愛的過程，或許才會漸漸變得真的聰明穩重。
就像『成家立業』的過程，不是『立業成家』一樣。



Becca "Does it ever go away?"
Nat "What?"
Becca "This feeling."
Nat "No. I don't think it does. Not for me it hasn't. And that's goin' on eleven years. It changes though."
Becca "How?"
Nat "I don't know. The weight of it, I guess. At some point it becomes bearable. It turns into something you can crawl out from under, and carry around - like a brick in your pocket. And you forget it every once in a while, but then you reach in for whatever reason and there it is 'Oh right. That.' Which can be awful. But not all the time. Sometimes it's kinda... Not that you like it exactly, but it's what you have instead of your son, so you don't wanna let go of it either. So you carry it around. And it doesn't go away, which is..."
Becca "What."
Nat "Fine...actually."

他以後會不會消失？不會，但他會變。
    悲痛，一些時候它變得比較承受得了，你可以從它的陰影下爬出來。然後把它當成磚頭放在口袋裡，有時你也能忘了它的存在。但是你會不小心又碰到它，發現它的存在。想，原來在那。這會使人很難受。
    但不會每時每刻都這樣。有時候你會覺得不喜歡這樣過，但就剩下這個。所以你每天帶著它，它從不會消失。
你會發現，這其實挺好的。

最親的人終會離開自己。
恩，我有這麼想過，想到淚流滿面。很害怕。



Becca坐在車裡痛哭的那段

平行宇宙
不幸的家庭各有各的不幸，我們這些置身事外的永遠也無法體會到那種感覺。
可是，再悲傷版本的你，也會有一些可笑的事在你身邊發生。