Not everyone can identify with that!
When you lost the one that means most to you, you refused to admit it. Sometimes you even forget that they are not there anymore. Sometimes you mistake others for them on the street. And sometimes you call their names, but suddenly realize that there will simply be no answer no matter how long you are going to wait. They were once around us but not anymore. It is ok that you can not let it go, and it is fine to live with it. However, time heals and things will get better. Still, you can not forget them but begin to accept the fact that they can only stay in your heart. You come out of the rabbit hole and let them be the best part of your memory. It still hurts but is no more unbearable.