This life came so close to never happening--25th Hour

************這篇影評可能有雷************

一種寧靜的絕望。

影片的台詞，背景音樂，鏡頭都很贊。這裡只談對影名的理解。

毋庸置疑，印象最深的兩段，就是開始時Monty(愛德華諾頓飾)在他父親的餐廳面對鏡子詛咒整個美國社會以及自己的生活的長達5分鐘的fuck.
和結尾Monty的父親開車送他去監獄的路上他父親的獨白。
我始終覺得，只有最後這一段獨白，才是本片的重中之重。所謂的第25小時，就是Monty夢境中父親描繪的那幅田園詩歌般的畫面。
前面的一切都是鋪墊。之前24小時的告別儀式，每一分每一秒都瀰漫著現實的殘酷。卻又不得不面對。而這24小時過後的下一個小時，7年的監獄生活的開始，人生必將陷入更深重的黑暗之中。

人們當面臨未知總不由自主的恐懼。弱者選擇把這種恐懼表現出來，以期待得到鼓勵與幫助。強者選擇壓制甚至忽略這種恐懼，從容面對。有時候，沒有誰能真的幫誰。
在看過《越獄》這種以「密切跟蹤Mike的行蹤拍成的大型監獄生活指南性的紀錄片」之後，正常人都知道，在美國，或許沒什麼比鋃鐺入獄更恐怖的了。但是我們的Monty是堅強的，他選擇了「硬著頭皮直面慘澹的人生」！
巨大的恐懼被強壓下去了，主人公從頭到尾都沒有歇斯底里，他只是有條不紊的處理完所有的留戀，以最理智的態度為那未知的第25小時做著準備。
太寧靜了，他怎麼可以這麼理智！以致於電影中Monty的女朋友Naturelle替我們喊出了這份疑問---我覺得他今天晚上很不平常，我想要看到他恐懼的樣子（I want him to act like he's scared.）
但是恐懼有什麼用呢
It won't do any good to us.
絕望，常常是不能分享的。人必將獨自品嚐屬於他自己的那一份孤獨。

他其實多麼想逃避這一切。他其實多想要重過此生。
我知道。因為最後一段是這麼演的麼~
從他父親描繪的新的生活，其實正是Monty美麗而渺遠的夢境，夢不會說謊，它在我們的主人公終於放鬆的那一刻跳出來告訴我們，Monty一直這麼理性與堅強，其實心裡有多害怕。害怕到想要不顧一切的逃離。
他寧願放棄曾擁有的一切，隱姓埋名，重過一生。過一種生活，彷彿之前的種種，30年的光陰從來沒發生過---It all came so close to never happening...
在那段夢裡，他的父親反覆又反覆的強調，you can't come back ,and you never look back.
一個人究竟要聚集多大的勇氣才能對自己朝夕相處了半生的生活徹底決裂？將過去的人生徹底否定去過另一場人生？！
其實一直我們是不知道那些畫面是Monty的夢境的，導演把現實與夢裡的畫面銜接的非常了無痕跡，他故意迎合了觀眾的期望，讓我們以為善良俊朗的主人公逃脫了入獄的噩夢。雖然即使面對這或許已算是最好的逃脫現實的情景，我仍然感到難過的要死。而導演竟然在最後我們終於開始認同那樣的一生或許還不錯的時候，把畫面切回了現實--開往監獄方向的車仍然在行駛，Monty依然鼻青臉腫慘不忍睹的睡著。。。
我忍不住唏噓--原來僅僅是場夢啊---同時更加抓心撓肝的難過
他爹平靜富有磁性的旁白仍在繼續---This life came so close to never happening...

原來Monty睡著了的這25th Hour，it never existed.
過去。夢境。一切。就像從未發生過一樣。

附最後一段父親的旁白-----
（F:Father M:Monty）
F:Give me the word,and i'll take a left turn.
M:Left turn to where?
F:Take the GW Bridge and go west.(去喬治華盛頓橋，然後往西開)
Get you stitched up somewhere and keep going.
Find a nice little town.
On the way,stop in 芝加哥 for a Cubs game.
You always told me you wanted to see Wrigley Field.
M:Dad...
F:I'm saying that if you want it...if that's what you want,I'll do it.
M:No,they'd take your bar.
F:My bar.Jesus.My bar.They can take my bar to hell and back.You think my bar is more important to me than you,my only child?
Give me the word,and we'll go.
M:(think)They'll find me.
They'll find me sooner of later.
F:You know how they find people?They find them when they come home.
People run away,but they usually come back.That's when they get caught.So you go...and you never come back.
(Monty suddenly looked at his father...And I guess that's when he fell asleep.)
You never come home.

We'll drive.
We'll keep driving.
Head out to the middle of nowhere.(開到中部的無人區)
Take that road as far as it takes us.
You've never been west of Philly(費城),have you?
This is a beautiful country ,Monty.
It's beautiful out there.
Looks like a different world--mountains,hills,cows,farms,and white churches.
I drove out west with your mother one time.before you was born.
布魯克林 to the Pacific in three days.(用了三天從布魯克林開到西海岸)
Just enough money for gas,sandwiches,and coffee,but we made it.
Every man,woman,and child alive,should see the desert one time before they die.
Nothing at all for miles around,nothing but sand and rocks and cactus and blue sky.
Not a soul in sight.(連個鬼影都見不到)
No sirens, no car alarms,nobody honking at you,(沒有汽笛聲，沒有汽車喇叭聲，沒有人會衝你按喇叭)
no madman cursing or pissing on the streets.
You find the silence out there.
You find the peace.
You can find God.
(singing..keep driving...)
So,we drive west.
Keep driving till we find a nice little town.
These towns out in the desert--you know why they got there?
People wanted to get away from somewhere else.
The desert's for starting over.
(Getting into a bar.)Find a bar,and I'll buy us drinks.
I haven't had a drink in two years,but I'll have one with you,one last whiskey with my boy.
Take our time with it--taste the barley,let it linger.(享受它的每一分每一秒，品嚐大賣的味道，讓它在口中縈繞)
（They drunk.Father laughing）
And then I'll go.
(Monty took off his necklace and pass it to his father)
M:I want you to keep that.
F:(nodding,.)I'll hold it for you.
(they get out of the bar and say goodbay.)
I'll tell you,"Don't ever write me.Don't ever come visit."
I'll tell you,"I believe in God's Kingdom,and I believe I'll be with you again and your mother,but not in this lifetime."(they hugged.)
(Slow music plays)
(Engine turns over)

You get a job somewhere...a job that pays cash,a boss who doesn't ask question.
And you make a new life and you never come back.
Monty,people like you.It's a gift.
You make friends wherever you go.
You're gonna work hard.
You're gonna keep your head down and your mouth shut.
You're gonna make yourself a new home out there.
You're a 紐約er.That will never change.You got 紐約 in your bones.
Spend the rest of your life out west,but you're still a 紐約er.
You'll miss your friends,you'll miss your dog,but you're strong.
You got your mother's backbone in you.(你有你媽媽的志氣)
You're strong like she was.
You find the right people,and you get yourself papers.(找個正確的人，給你自己弄張出生證明)
A driver's license.
(taking pictures.)
You forget your old life.
You can't come back.
You can't call.You can't write.You never look back.
You make a new life for yourself,and you live it.You hear me?
You live your life the way it should have been.
And maybe...
This is dangerous,but maybe after a couple of years,you send word to Naturelle.
(He met Naturelle.and they celebrated New Year's eve together.Naturelle's with baby.)
You get yourself a new family,and you raise them right,you hear me?
Give them a good life,Monty.Give them what they need.
You have a son.
Maybe you name him 詹姆士.It's a good,strong name.
And maybe one day,years from now,long after I'm dead and gone,reunited with your dear mother,
you gather your whole family together,and tell them the truth,who you are and where you come from.
You tell them the whole story.
And then you ask them,if they know how lucky they are to be there.
It all came so close to never happening.
(back to the reality...)
This life came so close to never happening.
(Man vocalizing)