巴爾扎克的愛,或者說形而上的愛

　　secretary,是講救人的，講lee如何被grey救，再返過來救grey，lee可能不知道怎麼自救，但她可以輕易被掠獲、被激發，grey只能被那種方式來救，講道理沒用——他都知道。他必須對激發出的後果猶疑不定，左右揣測懷疑，推對方到選擇生死和自我的邊緣。
　　
　　grey是更深的lee（lee如果不在這個人生階段遇到grey，她就會慢慢變成grey）, lee通過傷害自己身體來承載、置換、好像隨著傷口的痊癒這種「空缺」能夠消失——這不過是推遲死期。
grey的疼痛用在壓制內心上；擁有權力的他反而是老練/軟弱的。
　　
　　secretary,是講救人的：客套的參與，形式化的流程，怎麼淘汰掉「真」，讓人軟弱，讓人 尋覓/投靠 權力/算計/成熟/所謂「愛」的經驗 來保護自己，讓人無從分辨，墮入驚恐/angst；而無知、稚嫩的lee卻扮演著拯救的角色，走前者得以成為自身的路，試探個可能的救贖。
　　
　　secretary,是講救人的ai的古典故事，不是異色。
　　
　　最後，總要個他人來牽住grey給他的所謂經驗以否證，grey才相信，因為那是他唯一要求的：去做/行動，用它證明/驅除任何戲仿。
---不管多白痴一件，也不管這個每一代人都表演的「愛」的故事被演練到多麼濫俗。
　　
　　Lee: In one way or another I've always suffered. I didn't know why exactly. But I do know that I'm not so scared of suffering now. I feel more than I've ever felt and I've found someone to feel with. To play with. To love in a way that feels right for me. I hope he knows that I can see that he suffers too. And that I want to love him.
　　
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　　E. Edward Grey: Why do you cut yourself, Lee?
　　Lee: I don't know.
　　E. Edward Grey: Is it that sometimes the pain inside has to come to the surface, and when you see evidence of the pain inside you finally know you're really here? Then, when you watch the wound heal, it's comforting... isn't it?
　　Lee: I... That's a way to put it.
　　
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　　Lee: Each cut, each scar, each burn, a different mood or time. I told him what the first one was, told him where the second one came from. I remembered them all. And for the first time in my life I felt beautiful. Finally part of the earth. I touched the soil and he loved me back.
　　
　　http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0274812/combined
　　
　　http://www.secretarythemovie.co.uk